Who am I?
Coming from a long line of immigrants who have always been used to being the outsiders; I'm looking for my own way in life, as much free from cultural borders as can be. I was raised multicultural in a society that is very mixed.
Though very mixed, where I come from people still judge based on last names and racial factors. I have always hated that, eventually I moved to the so-called first world only to realize it's the same thing, just the last name part isn't all that big of a deal. However, race has mattered a lot in these stupid societies.
Being mestizo with various ethnical backgrounds; I've always been the guy who might just be one of us but we can't be really sure about it. I've been called all sorts of things, but certainly all too little have I just been called human being. In the suburbs in Minnesota, USA, I've been called someone's black friend. In Germany I've been called a Zigeuner. I've been called moro by some Spaniards. In Ecuador I've been called an outsider despite me growing up there.
My afro has made some people think I'm not clean, which is racist. My accent has made people think I am poor, which is racist. One of my last names has made people think I'm a descendant of nazis, which is very ignorant prejudice. I am not Italian. I am not German, I am not Indigenous Amazonian nor Indigenous Andean. I am not Mesoamerican, Ecuadorian, Iberian, Arabic and Scandinavian. I'm just me.
As to “Why do I do this?” Well, the answer is simple. In my life I have been exposed to some traumatic experiences and adding to that the fact that I decided to move to Germany on my own and ended up experiencing a bunch of other many things and developing my beginnings as an independent musician are just the tip of the “SCHEISSBERG” of things that I have been turning into sounds and lyrics. Not to mention that many of these life lessons made me question everything about what I had known.
This music, being entangled to those experiences, made me create my coming-of-age album concept of “A Different Way of Getting Lost”, a multi-genre experience which includes different qualities of production and the work of different feature artists and producers that I've met through the years. The album has been a long journey and has taken many forms. I can't wait for you listen to the various songs. I know most people won't like all of them (can't judge them, since I can't expect everyone to like all the genres that I create), but to me, just the fact that someone did listen is enough to make it all worth the while.
I have been learning how to express the mess that has been in my head and as I was trying to put order into it, I just ended up realizing that the more I dug deep, the more it all made less and less sense. That's when I decided to embrace the void, the deeply unknown and just roll with it for that is the best way to process so much. It won't make sense as a whole, or maybe it will, who knows, that's besides the point. Some of my lyrics might be offensive, some might be very personal, others might be a critic and/or an ode to something. However, the point of it all is to embrace the darkness inside and let the true colors out at the same time. This is me, world! Now do your worst. I'm waiting.
With love,
Con amor,
Mit Liebe,
Kilo-Matt